knowledge=scary.....
pursuit of knowledge is the hardest to persevere, the easiest to adandon and while it is the bravest quest of all, it is also the most cowardly to retreat from
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Lifelong Learning Organized Extrovert
I took the 43 Things Personality Quiz and found out I'm a
Lifelong Learning Organized Extrovert
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Family
I have been contemplating the importance of family for a long time and I have finally decided that family truly is the most important thing. For a time I believed it was friends, but I now know that isn't the truth, family is there no matter what, friends you can lose. For example, my family has moved multiple times and when you move, your family is all you have, because your friends, no matter how much you love them, don't come with you.
Sunday, September 21, 2008
On the Future
The future terrifies and excites me.
I am terrified to go to college, not because I will have to leave my parents or home, but because I shall be separated from my friends and I am terrified that the distance will separate us and I may lose them. Maybe this just means that we aren't good enough friends. I am not scared to leave my family. Why? I believe it is because I know that they will always be there when I return home and I shall always be in contact with them, even if its a simple update on the family, I shall always be in contact with them, save for the minute possibility of a falling out with the entire family. (That itself would prove to be quite the feat, my extended family is rather exorbitant, and each member has somehow managed to have an astoundingly capacious heart.) But I am terrified to leave my friends because I cannot say for certain that they will be there when I return. And this saddens me. Right now I cannot imagine life without my 4 best friends but when college comes around, we will most likely be in different states, we shall have different friends, classes, experiences and lives. I know my one best friend, who also happens to be my neighbor, the person I grew up with always nearby, and 2 years my junior, will always be there for me because that is how it is now. We can go for weeks without seeing each other because we attend different schools and have different groups. However, once we see each other, it is always as though no time has lapsed. The only hard part is relating to each other about our other friends because I don't know hers and she doesn't know mine, however we get through it easily enough. This example gives me hope, because if my neighbor and I can talk about our other friends, then my other 3 best friends and I should be able to do this in college, yes? That's what I do with my eldest sister as well. She is off at college, yet I still can talk to her about my friends, and with a simple description of the situation she can formulate an opinion and can help me through my problems. This again gives me hope that my friendship with my 4 best friends will persevere. I am not worried about the friendship with my neighbor. I am still worried about the friendship with my school best friends though, but it lessens the more I think about it. I just wish I could know for certain whether or not we shall stay friends because if we aren't going to then I shall just have to do something to change that.
Addition: 10.11.08
I recently read the blog of Kathryn Lynn titled "Who's Life is it Anyway?" she had an article on the future as well however, she included, or somewhat compared, the past. Here I have put some of her article in, the stuff in quotes, obviously, and I also have posted my response to her blog. This is an example of what I have brought up before, that is, hearing new opinions on an idea, whether by conversation or reading, is an excellent way to brain storm and consider whether your opinion is truly the one you wish to hold. Here it goes:
Katharyn Lynn's article:
“My cousin fears the future, because it is open and unknown. That's the very reason I love it. It's the past that terrifies me.” “The past haunts, the future doesn't. Moreover, the scariest thing is that … the past…can’t be changed.”
”I have no fear of the future. Apart from unchangeable things like death, and illness, and of course the happening of bad things, the future is malleable, malleable to my will. I think people worry about the future because they are afraid they won’t get what they want. I’m not afraid of the future; I’m not worried that I won’t get what I want. I’m worried that what I want isn’t right, and won't realise it until I've already attained it. The past is set in stone and there is no recovering from it. What’s done is done... and cannot be undone. The past is so final, unmoving and concrete. The only thing one can do is accept it and work past it, or hide it and work past it.”
“…I like to have contingency plans and a wide variety of options open to me at all times. An exit plan. Several, if I can manage it, the more the better. Anything set in stone with no room for variety scares me a bit, that’s why the past is terrifying.”
”You might not know what went wrong, that you even made a mistake until further down the line when you look back … But there is absolutely nothing you can do about it. It's done. In the past. Set. In. Stone. You might make amends for any wrongs you have done, try to make the best of a situation you've already botched, but when it comes down to it, it's too late.”
”How is that not terrifying?
The future?
Is freedom...
where the past is a prison."
My (dismal in comparison) response:
Your article on the future was really interesting! Your opinion is the opposite of mine, however, after having read yours I understand what you mean about both the future and the past. I had never painted the past as a prison in my mind, although, now that I consider this idea I realize I should have a long time ago. The past truly can haunt you whereas the future can hold anything you want it to. After all, regrets are only in the past, you can't regret the future. It is like how I have said before that vision is 20/20 in hindsight. At the time of your decision it may have seemed the right thing to do, but looking back you can see what should have been done. IN that sense I still fear the future, because, similar to what you stated, I am fearful of making the wrong decision. I love reading new opinions of ideas because they make me reconsider my opinions of the ideas, or sometimes, well, most of the time, make me consider an idea for the first time.
When you talked about being stuck in the future, I was at first befuddled by the idea, but I now know what you mean. And I have hence realized I am in the same situation. I am in high school now but all through middle school I couldn't wait to go to high school and now in high school I can't wait to go to college. I am already looking at colleges and thinking about where I wish to attend. I am always planning my future instead of living in the present, and because of that I miss out on the present. It's like I am waiting my life away. Your ideas have been eye opening for me.
I am terrified to go to college, not because I will have to leave my parents or home, but because I shall be separated from my friends and I am terrified that the distance will separate us and I may lose them. Maybe this just means that we aren't good enough friends. I am not scared to leave my family. Why? I believe it is because I know that they will always be there when I return home and I shall always be in contact with them, even if its a simple update on the family, I shall always be in contact with them, save for the minute possibility of a falling out with the entire family. (That itself would prove to be quite the feat, my extended family is rather exorbitant, and each member has somehow managed to have an astoundingly capacious heart.) But I am terrified to leave my friends because I cannot say for certain that they will be there when I return. And this saddens me. Right now I cannot imagine life without my 4 best friends but when college comes around, we will most likely be in different states, we shall have different friends, classes, experiences and lives. I know my one best friend, who also happens to be my neighbor, the person I grew up with always nearby, and 2 years my junior, will always be there for me because that is how it is now. We can go for weeks without seeing each other because we attend different schools and have different groups. However, once we see each other, it is always as though no time has lapsed. The only hard part is relating to each other about our other friends because I don't know hers and she doesn't know mine, however we get through it easily enough. This example gives me hope, because if my neighbor and I can talk about our other friends, then my other 3 best friends and I should be able to do this in college, yes? That's what I do with my eldest sister as well. She is off at college, yet I still can talk to her about my friends, and with a simple description of the situation she can formulate an opinion and can help me through my problems. This again gives me hope that my friendship with my 4 best friends will persevere. I am not worried about the friendship with my neighbor. I am still worried about the friendship with my school best friends though, but it lessens the more I think about it. I just wish I could know for certain whether or not we shall stay friends because if we aren't going to then I shall just have to do something to change that.
Addition: 10.11.08
I recently read the blog of Kathryn Lynn titled "Who's Life is it Anyway?" she had an article on the future as well however, she included, or somewhat compared, the past. Here I have put some of her article in, the stuff in quotes, obviously, and I also have posted my response to her blog. This is an example of what I have brought up before, that is, hearing new opinions on an idea, whether by conversation or reading, is an excellent way to brain storm and consider whether your opinion is truly the one you wish to hold. Here it goes:
Katharyn Lynn's article:
“My cousin fears the future, because it is open and unknown. That's the very reason I love it. It's the past that terrifies me.” “The past haunts, the future doesn't. Moreover, the scariest thing is that … the past…can’t be changed.”
”I have no fear of the future. Apart from unchangeable things like death, and illness, and of course the happening of bad things, the future is malleable, malleable to my will. I think people worry about the future because they are afraid they won’t get what they want. I’m not afraid of the future; I’m not worried that I won’t get what I want. I’m worried that what I want isn’t right, and won't realise it until I've already attained it. The past is set in stone and there is no recovering from it. What’s done is done... and cannot be undone. The past is so final, unmoving and concrete. The only thing one can do is accept it and work past it, or hide it and work past it.”
“…I like to have contingency plans and a wide variety of options open to me at all times. An exit plan. Several, if I can manage it, the more the better. Anything set in stone with no room for variety scares me a bit, that’s why the past is terrifying.”
”You might not know what went wrong, that you even made a mistake until further down the line when you look back … But there is absolutely nothing you can do about it. It's done. In the past. Set. In. Stone. You might make amends for any wrongs you have done, try to make the best of a situation you've already botched, but when it comes down to it, it's too late.”
”How is that not terrifying?
The future?
Is freedom...
where the past is a prison."
My (dismal in comparison) response:
Your article on the future was really interesting! Your opinion is the opposite of mine, however, after having read yours I understand what you mean about both the future and the past. I had never painted the past as a prison in my mind, although, now that I consider this idea I realize I should have a long time ago. The past truly can haunt you whereas the future can hold anything you want it to. After all, regrets are only in the past, you can't regret the future. It is like how I have said before that vision is 20/20 in hindsight. At the time of your decision it may have seemed the right thing to do, but looking back you can see what should have been done. IN that sense I still fear the future, because, similar to what you stated, I am fearful of making the wrong decision. I love reading new opinions of ideas because they make me reconsider my opinions of the ideas, or sometimes, well, most of the time, make me consider an idea for the first time.
When you talked about being stuck in the future, I was at first befuddled by the idea, but I now know what you mean. And I have hence realized I am in the same situation. I am in high school now but all through middle school I couldn't wait to go to high school and now in high school I can't wait to go to college. I am already looking at colleges and thinking about where I wish to attend. I am always planning my future instead of living in the present, and because of that I miss out on the present. It's like I am waiting my life away. Your ideas have been eye opening for me.
Poems/quotes/random etc
IF I HAD MY LIFE TO LIVE OVER - by Erma Bombeck
I would have burned the pink candle sculpted like a rose before it melted in storage.
I would have talked less and listened more.
I would have invited friends over to dinner even if the carpet was stained or the sofa faded.
I would have eaten the popcorn in the 'good' living room and worried much less about the dirt when someone wanted to light a fire in the fireplace.
I would have taken the time to listen to my grandfather ramble about his youth.
I would never have insisted the car windows be rolled up on a summer day because my hair had just been teased and sprayed.
I would have sat on the lawn with my children and not worried about grass stains.
I would have cried and laughed less while watching television and more while watching life.
I would never have bought anything just because it was practical, wouldn't show soil, or was guaranteed to last a lifetime.
Instead of wishing away nine months of pregnancy, I'd have cherished every moment and realized that the wonderment growing inside me was the only chance in life to assist God in a miracle.
When my kids kissed me impetuously, I would never have said, "Later. Now go get washed up for dinner."
But mostly, given another shot at life, I would seize every minute, look at it and really see it , live it and never give it back.
http://www.indianchild.com/if_i_had_my_life.htm
I will be there.......
If one day you feel like crying...
Call me.
I don't promise that I will make you laugh,
But I can cry with you
If one day you want to run away--
Don't be afraid to call me.
I don't promise to ask you to stop...
But I can run with you
If one day you don't want to listen
to anyone...
Call me.
I promise to be there for you.
And I promise to be very quiet.
But if one day you call...
And there is no answer...
Come fast to see me.
Perhaps I need you.
-The End
http://www.indianchild.com/i_will_be_there.htm
Lessons in Life.
I've learned that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.
I've learned that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.
I've learned that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. The same goes for true love.
I've learned that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.
I've learned that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.
I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.
I've learned that you can keep going long after you can't.
I've learned that either you control your attitude or it controls you.
I've learned that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.
I've learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.
I've learned that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.
I've learned that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down will be the ones to help you get back up.
I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.
I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
I've learned that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them, and less to do with how many years you have lived
I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.
I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.
I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.
I've learned that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do love each other.
I've learned that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.
I've learned that two people can look at the same thing and see something totally different.
I've learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.
I've learned that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you you will find the strength to help.
I've learned that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.
I've learned that the people you care about most in life are sometimes taken from you too soon
http://www.indianchild.com/lesson_in_life.htm
-"Me; I'm dishonest, and you can always trust a dishonest man to be dishonest: Honestly. It's the honest ones you want to look out for, because you can never tell when they're going to do something incredibly...stupid..." Johnny Depp as Jack Sparrow
-"...be not afraid of greatness: some are born great, some achieve greatness, and some have greatness thrust upon them." Twelfth Night, Act II, Scene V
-"When I said I would die a bachelor, I did not think I should live till I were married." Benedick, "Much Ado About Nothing", Act II, Scene III
-"The harder the conflict, the more glorious the triumph. What we obtain too cheap, we esteem too lightly; it is dearness only that gives everything its value. I love the man that can smile in trouble, that can gather strength from distress and grow brave by reflection. 'Tis the business of little minds to shrink; but he whose heart is firm, and whose conscience approves his conduct, will pursue his principles unto death." Thomas Paine, Crisis 1.
-"The Constitution only gives people the right to pursue happiness. You have to catch it yourself." Benjamin Franklin
-"I believe in Christianity as I believe that he sun has risen; not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else." C.S. Lewis.
-"It is by the goodness of God that we have those three unspeakably precious things: freedom of speech, freedom of conscience, and the prudence never to practice either of them." Mark Twain.
I would have burned the pink candle sculpted like a rose before it melted in storage.
I would have talked less and listened more.
I would have invited friends over to dinner even if the carpet was stained or the sofa faded.
I would have eaten the popcorn in the 'good' living room and worried much less about the dirt when someone wanted to light a fire in the fireplace.
I would have taken the time to listen to my grandfather ramble about his youth.
I would never have insisted the car windows be rolled up on a summer day because my hair had just been teased and sprayed.
I would have sat on the lawn with my children and not worried about grass stains.
I would have cried and laughed less while watching television and more while watching life.
I would never have bought anything just because it was practical, wouldn't show soil, or was guaranteed to last a lifetime.
Instead of wishing away nine months of pregnancy, I'd have cherished every moment and realized that the wonderment growing inside me was the only chance in life to assist God in a miracle.
When my kids kissed me impetuously, I would never have said, "Later. Now go get washed up for dinner."
But mostly, given another shot at life, I would seize every minute, look at it and really see it , live it and never give it back.
http://www.indianchild.com/if_i_had_my_life.htm
I will be there.......
If one day you feel like crying...
Call me.
I don't promise that I will make you laugh,
But I can cry with you
If one day you want to run away--
Don't be afraid to call me.
I don't promise to ask you to stop...
But I can run with you
If one day you don't want to listen
to anyone...
Call me.
I promise to be there for you.
And I promise to be very quiet.
But if one day you call...
And there is no answer...
Come fast to see me.
Perhaps I need you.
-The End
http://www.indianchild.com/i_will_be_there.htm
Lessons in Life.
I've learned that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.
I've learned that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.
I've learned that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. The same goes for true love.
I've learned that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.
I've learned that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.
I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.
I've learned that you can keep going long after you can't.
I've learned that either you control your attitude or it controls you.
I've learned that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.
I've learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.
I've learned that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.
I've learned that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down will be the ones to help you get back up.
I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.
I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
I've learned that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them, and less to do with how many years you have lived
I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.
I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.
I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.
I've learned that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do love each other.
I've learned that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.
I've learned that two people can look at the same thing and see something totally different.
I've learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.
I've learned that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you you will find the strength to help.
I've learned that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.
I've learned that the people you care about most in life are sometimes taken from you too soon
http://www.indianchild.com/lesson_in_life.htm
-"Me; I'm dishonest, and you can always trust a dishonest man to be dishonest: Honestly. It's the honest ones you want to look out for, because you can never tell when they're going to do something incredibly...stupid..." Johnny Depp as Jack Sparrow
-"...be not afraid of greatness: some are born great, some achieve greatness, and some have greatness thrust upon them." Twelfth Night, Act II, Scene V
-"When I said I would die a bachelor, I did not think I should live till I were married." Benedick, "Much Ado About Nothing", Act II, Scene III
-"The harder the conflict, the more glorious the triumph. What we obtain too cheap, we esteem too lightly; it is dearness only that gives everything its value. I love the man that can smile in trouble, that can gather strength from distress and grow brave by reflection. 'Tis the business of little minds to shrink; but he whose heart is firm, and whose conscience approves his conduct, will pursue his principles unto death." Thomas Paine, Crisis 1.
-"The Constitution only gives people the right to pursue happiness. You have to catch it yourself." Benjamin Franklin
-"I believe in Christianity as I believe that he sun has risen; not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else." C.S. Lewis.
-"It is by the goodness of God that we have those three unspeakably precious things: freedom of speech, freedom of conscience, and the prudence never to practice either of them." Mark Twain.
Friends...more
This isn't mine but I liked it, well most of it
FRIENDSHIP IS A PRICELESS GIFT
THAT CANNOT BE BOUGHT OR SOLD
BUT ITS VALUE IS FAR GREATER
THAN THE MOUNTAIN MADE OF GOLD
FOR GOLD IS COLD & LIFELESS
IT CAN NEITHER SEE NOR HEAR
& IN THE TIME OF TROUBLE
IT IS POWER LESS 2 CHEER--
IT HAS NO EARS 2 LISTEN
NOR HEART 2 UNDERSTAND
IT CANNOT BRING U COMFORT
OR REACH OUT A HELPING HAND
SO WHEN U ASK
GOD FOR A GIFT
BE THANKFUL IF HE SENDS
NOT DIAMONDS, PEARLS OR RICHES
BUT THE LOVE OF REAL TRUE FRIENDS
http://www.indianchild.com/best_friend_poems.htm
http://www.indianchild.com/a_true_friend.htm
Because you're my Best Friend..
Simple vs Real
Anyone can stand by you when you are right, but a Friend will stand by you even when you are wrong...
http://www.indianchild.com/best_friend_poems.htmA simple friend identifies himself when he calls. A real friend doesn't have to.
A simple friend opens a conversation with a full news bulletin on his life.
A real friend says, "What's new with you?"
A simple friend thinks the problems you whine about are recent.
A real friend says, "You've been whining about the same thing for 14 years. Get off your duff and do something about it."
A simple friend has never seen you cry. A real friend has shoulders soggy from your tears.
A simple friend doesn't know your parents' first names. A real friend has their phone numbers in his address book.
A simple friend hates it when you call after he has gone to bed. A real friend asks you why you took so long to call.
A simple friend seeks to talk with you about your problems. A real friend seeks to help you with your problems.
A simple friend, when visiting, acts like a guest. A real friend opens your refrigerator and helps himself.
A simple friend thinks the friendship is over when you have an argument.
A real friend knows that it's not a friendship until after you've had a fight.
A simple friend expects you to always be there for them. A real friend expects to always be there for you!
FRIENDSHIP IS A PRICELESS GIFT
THAT CANNOT BE BOUGHT OR SOLD
BUT ITS VALUE IS FAR GREATER
THAN THE MOUNTAIN MADE OF GOLD
FOR GOLD IS COLD & LIFELESS
IT CAN NEITHER SEE NOR HEAR
& IN THE TIME OF TROUBLE
IT IS POWER LESS 2 CHEER--
IT HAS NO EARS 2 LISTEN
NOR HEART 2 UNDERSTAND
IT CANNOT BRING U COMFORT
OR REACH OUT A HELPING HAND
SO WHEN U ASK
GOD FOR A GIFT
BE THANKFUL IF HE SENDS
NOT DIAMONDS, PEARLS OR RICHES
BUT THE LOVE OF REAL TRUE FRIENDS
http://www.indianchild.com/best_friend_poems.htm
CUTE Friendship saying :
No man or woman is worth your tears.
The only one who is, will never make you cry.
If you love someone, put their name in a circle, instead of a heart.
Hearts can break, but circles go on forever.
Everyone hears what you say. Friends listen to what you say.
Best friends listen to what you don't .
If all my friends were to jump off a bridge, I wouldn't jump with them. I'd be at the bottom to catch them.
Don't frown, because you never know who's falling in love with your smile !
It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone and a day to love someone---but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.
"If you judge people, you have no time to love them."- Mother Teresa
http://www.indianchild.com/a_true_friend.htm
Because you're my Best Friend..
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